I Hear Only the Music in My Head

These scars I have keep
Bleeding for you
And I’m screaming out loud
For help.
No one is getting it.
No one is paying attention.

I might as well cry my
Lonely life every night
Cause knowing no one
Understands me or
Wants to, makes me
Weaker inside.

I hear only the music in my head.
I hear only what you’ve said.
I hear only my heart beating
Inside my head and wicked
Thoughts that say,
“I wish I were dead.”

What monsters are these?
What demons can they be?
Just go away, go away and
Leave my head alone.

My chest is heavy with panic.
I shake and shake
Until my body passes out.

A lonely life where
No one understands you.

Where can you go?
Where will I go?
Where can I go?

This virus is reaching
Deep inside me
And slowly poisoning
My soul.

I hear only the music in my head.
I hear only what you’ve said.
I hear only my heart beating
Inside my head and wicked
Thoughts that say,
“I wish I were dead.”

copyright © Karen Elizabeth Waters 2011